Q: You have sometimes spoken about your early work as a portrait artist. When and why did you start making portraits? Do you still do them?
“Bryan,” soft pastel on sandpaper, 22″ x 28″, 1988
A: In 1989 I was a Naval officer working at the Pentagon and I hated my job as a computer analyst. Although it was terrifying to leave the security of a paycheck for the uncertainty of an artist’s existence, I made the leap. In retrospect it was one of the best decisions of my life. When I resigned from active duty (I remained in the Navy Reserve, which provided a part-time job and a small income; in 2003 I retired as a Navy Commander), I needed a way to make a living.
Prior to this career change, I worked hard to develop my portrait skills. I volunteered to run a life drawing class at The Art League School in Alexandria, VA, where I made hundreds of figure drawings using charcoal and pastel. I spent a semester commuting between Washington, DC and New York to study artistic anatomy at the New York Academy of Art. I spent another semester studying gross anatomy with medical students at Georgetown University Medical School. So I was well prepared to devote myself to making portraits.
For a time I made a living making commissioned photo-realist portraits in soft pastel on sandpaper. However, after about two years I became bored. I remember thinking, “I did not leave a boring job just to make boring art!” Furthermore, I had no interest in doing commissions because what I wanted to accomplish as an artist did not coincide with what portrait clients wanted. I completed my final portrait commission in 1990 and never looked back. To this day I remain loathe to do a commission of any kind.
Comments are welcome!
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Barbara, I think within your paragraph is the answer to why people rarely ask me to do a commission (sometimes they’ll ask hesitantly but never actually do it). They can readily see, in the sort of work I do, that there’s no need for direction or additional input. But in my ‘realism,’ there’s much to discourage someone looking for a template likeness (in a portrait or portrait study) since my eye-hand-delivery is not always flattering but is, instead, a deeper drive. That can be a bit scary for most.
Carol, as an agency-represented “portrait artist,” strictly defined, my task was to create a photo-realist likeness that more or less captured a person’s own self image. I was well-paid for this and I was good at it. In your work “likeness” does not come into play nearly as much as do other layers of meaning.
when i saw this portrait of Bryan i almost cried. it is so real. i am so sorry for your loss Barbara. you definitely have the knack for portrait work, but i completely understand not wanting to do commissions. me neither. listen to your intuition, girl.
Thank you, Anna. I always do (listen).